I’ve waited months for this moment. An after several endless weeks where I thought it was time, but it wasn’t. don’t was finally the night. They are here in the world…they are real and I made them… If later I find the ink that I press to this page is unreadable it will be a reminder of how I could not stop crying at their beauty. Those little eyes looking up at me their hands grabbing for me knowing that I was the one who carried them. Who withstood all there kicks to my insides as the grew. It said in the books that I read that you will never understand the feeling you get after having your child… and now I understand what that means.
No matter if that little horned one nearly made me bleed to death… I could not wait to hold him to my arms, and as he grabbed for me I could not help but believe that somewhere inside of him he felt bad for nearly killing me…. Probably not…I’m still a little woozy from the blood loss likely nothing I am thinking or writing know is real… but I felt the need to write it. To remember what this moment felt like, because even if someday I am like Vedis and birthing a child for the hundredth time I can hope it will feel just as amazing as the first time. It was painful… I screamed… I cried… and I felt a very strong urge to kill Marcus, and yet I feel as though I would do it again someday.
The Little Girl ( https://www.pinterest.com/pin/497366352571100164/ )
The blonde hair….the hair…BLONDE hair… my hair…. or what my hair once was. Oh lord I look at her and I see me. I see me before I was the me I am now. I see me, before I made the choices…and as I look at her I also see someone else…my mother. Not Dorina though the women is the one I consider my mother now… I see my mother before her, the blonde hair and the bright blue watchful eyes..and I remember. That mother I once had will never know her daughter, will never know her grandchildren… and for brief moment I feel myself missing her.. and that feeling fades to guilt, until it is swallowed up by the reminder that she has no memory for good reason… if she remembered these beautiful blue eyes would likely not be here to gaze up at her.
The Little Boy ( https://www.pinterest.com/pin/142637513171470307/ )
OOC NOTE: I DIDN’T ADD HORNS BUT TRUST ME THEY ARE THERE!
Now as I look at the little boy…my fingers trace his horns… in truth they are not that big yet, but when they are making there way though an already tiny hole…needless to say they feel a lot bigger. He’s still so beautiful and I cannot help but hold him close. Yes he may have nearly killed me, but I still love him so much. As I look at his golden eyes and deep red hair. Ironic really one of my children looks like me before I arrived in hell another looks like me, another looks more like me now… Though already I see his father in him… I feel partly bad that they seem to take after me more then him, but in truth it was Marc who said he hoped that they did just that…so maybe he will be happy.
I’m Egena Quinn-Seid Princess of Hell, and now Mother.
It was all worth it.
Every last moment.
Every last decision that lead me here.
Was all worth it for these beautiful.
Little Angels Little Devils
Little Monsters.